Wednesday, July 29, 2009

What is wrong with me?!

Lately I've been doing a lot of introspection. It's easy to do in London; something about the weather, all of the dense low-lying clouds, and the cozy chimneys of Georgian rowhouses makes a person more introverted - even in the summer. My recent introspection has been focusing on why I can't follow through on my personal resolutions. For example, I've made the following vows to myself over the last month:

1. I will run in the morning before work 3x per week.
2. I will only eat 1 piece of chocolate per day.
3. I will not buy pasta anymore.
4. I will stay on my budget.
5. I will blog every day.

Guess what.

I broke each of these vows pretty much within in the week.

It is hard enough to make life changes, period; it's even harder when you wake up and realize that you lack willpower. That realization was a pretty low blow. I always thought of myself as motivated and driven, but I guess it was always in the context of striving towards earning something I really wanted. Losing a stone is something I really want... but I want some cookies first. Saving money to buy a house one day is also something I want... but I also really want those shoes.

And blogging, well. I like to write. I have ideas for posts all of the time. But when it gets down to writing, I can think of about 100 things to do besides draft a post. Including cleaning. I hate cleaning.

Does anyone else out there in the blogosphere have this issue? You must have! Any advice you'd like to share, and maybe a bit of reassurance that I'm not the only person out there with dreams that she can't for the life of her make come true?


  1. Danielle - I have only recently discovered your writing, and want to share just how much it resonates with me. I know exactly what you mean about breaking resolutions. I do it EVERY DAY and am doing it right now as a matter of fact (I told myself I'd go to bed early tonight, but noooo, I'm here - happily so-) Be gentle with yourself, we ALL do this! Know that just by your sharing, you've reached someone way over here in Chicago. Thank you for that.

  2. Hi. Thank you so much for the comment. It really makes me feel so much better to know that people read this and are inspired by my posts. And, yes, I'm trying to be nicer to myself. I have a lot more ideas and a secret project that I'll be unveiling soon. So, thanks for commenting and for reading. d.